Let me be the first to say that obesity is a serious problem reaching near epidemic proportions in the United States. Being overweight puts one at an elevated risk for a number of health issues, including diabetes, hypertension, heart disease, metabolic syndrome and polycistic ovary syndrome.
I’m not writing this blog to celebrate obesity nor to encourage people to become overweight. By the same token, I’m not writing this blog to celebrate eating disorders of any kind nor to encourage people to become underweight. To be perfectly frank, this blog is not at all about other people, what they’re up to or how they’re living. This blog is about me, and it exists for three specific reasons:
1) To help myself come to terms with the body I have now.
Over the years, I have faced my prodigious weight gain with a winning combination of categorical denial and total avoidance. My friends are prohibited from taking pictures of me. I never linger too long in front of a mirror. I am just extremely uncomfortable with how I look. Taking self-portraits on a (somewhat, maybe, I dunno) regular basis will, I hope, allow me to acknowledge and accept the body I have right now, or, at the very least, allow me to become more comfortable with appearing in photographs.
2) To spur my efforts to get healthy.
Let me be absolutely clear about why I want to get healthy: zombies. I’m not talking your George Romero, laggard, low-moaning zombies. I’m talking your fast-moving, rage virus, cougar-snarl zombies. When the shit comes down, I do not want to be an hors d’oeuvre at the people-eating party.
Maybe I’m being a little hyperbolic. How’s this: I just wanna feel fit. I wanna be able to dance all night or take a flight of stairs without getting winded. Having a fighting chance at whatever apocalyptic scenario eventually presents itself would merely be a bonus.
How does blogging support this goal? Once again: photographic evidence. Starting a diet and exercise program can be incredibly frustrating when you feel like you’re not making any progress. Keeping a record of how I look from week to week and month to month will allow me to see exactly what progress I’m making towards my goals.
3) To challenge myself to dress better.
Working for myself and working from home have led to some less than stellar grooming habits. I shower
if when I feel like it, brush my hair with no particular frequency and spend most of each day in jammies and flip flops. Add to these tendencies the fact that designers and retailers have only just recently begun working on fashionable clothing for the plus size market (H&M coming soon and Marc Jacobs, too), and you have a recipe for one schlumpy looking lady.
Yet, despite the dearth of size-appropriate, fashiony clothing options and my proclivity for comfy pants – and, boy, do I love me some comfy pants – I have a closet full of actual, honest to god, wear-outside-the-house clothes that get no love. I am a bad person. Clothes need love, you guys. They need you to wear them. In wearing them, you fulfill them. It’s COSMIC.
I’m pretty sure you get how the blog supports this goal: the pictures again. No more hitting up the old standby outfits I wear on those rare occasions I leave the house. I’ll have to use a little creativity and wear things that maybe I haven’t worn in a while, or have even forgotten exist.
So, in summary, this blog exists to make me try.